I held myself tight in your arms
My legs curled up toward my chest
Embracing my body cradling me
It doesn’t matter that you are gone
When you are never present
How can I feel a loss of nothing
I will hold you accountable for my anger
I will blame you for my procrastination
I will allow you to build the wall
And to take the axe to hack away the pedestal
I once gazed up upon with adoration
I will not love for now
Not even myself
I will mock your words
And spin my own words of distrust and pain
From the hurt you caused
Don’t think of me as your enemy
Don’t think of me as your ally
Don’t think of me at all
